i
know
you're my friend

i
know
you want to help

but you can't


i
don't
really understand it myself

so
how
can i explain it to you

i
try
very hard

but i can't

just
leave
me be

i'm almost well

but
every
time, i'm forced to repeat it

i
relive
it again

i
sink
back into the blackness

if
you
are my friend

please leave me alone

this
is
something
i
must
do alone...............

so
please
don't ask

i
probably
know less then you

yes
it's
happening to me

but
i'd
really rather forget

i've
gone
over it a hundred times

and
it
never makes sense

and
i
doubt it ever will

so
please
don't ask

i'm tired
dead on my feet
but sleep won't come

like the ghosts of charles d
my thoughts
of past mistakes
present problems
future worries
parade thru my mind

i try to avoid them
but like
machines
of
fate
they
roll on unabated

too noisy to ignore
too relentless to avoid

but calm will come
and with it sleep
it must